Every questions will find its answer

February 02, 2025

My whole time focused on answering questions about myself --- say self-discovery (a must for researchers, like asking good questions leads to good solutions). However, the questions are not intellectual and groundbreaking in a scientific sense. Instead, they are tiny and awkward--- just about my small behavior, intricate curiosity, subtle details etc. Yet these questions might hold the key to truly shine my whole life --- as understanding and real transformation are getting started.

At this age and this moment of my life, I have clearly answered most of these questions and gain more confidence. But to truly shine my life is a long journey ahead --- one that demands determination, action and patience.

I have uncovered what truly matters to me, why I feel like that and why I behave the way I do. I now understand why people around me often have that comment and perceive me in certain ways, what my passion and my strength are and what my shortcomings distract me from achieving my goals. Most importantly, I have found solutions to help me progress faster with greater clarity.

In my opinion, slow progress is still far better than ignoring the journey of self-awareness altogether and rushing through life without clarifying. That is why people often say that everyone has their own race and pace. I agree with this statement but I believe that race and pace should bring personal fulfillment and satisfaction. Ideally, they should help a person bring out the best in themselves and contribute meaningfully. Otherwise, they simply serves as excuses to fall behind.

This belief is why my favorite personality trait in a person is perseverance. It is also the most important value I want to instill in my future children when I become a mother. Likewise, what I dislike the most is a lack of effort --- the unwillingness and inability to find a way to get what they want. To me, lacking effort is a sign of weakness --- of being too soft.

Looking back, I felt a mix of sadness and a deep empathy for my younger self --- the girl who often felt lost in a crowd, filled with doubts, a sense of disconnect and struggling to find where she belonged. But I am also incredibly thankful and proud of her for being brave enough to walk an uncertain path, and she didn't give up. That journey has shaped my life and brought me to where I am today. If I could go back and say something to that younger version of myself, I would tell her "Nothing wrong with you, you are truly unique. Trust your uniqueness has value. Work harder and keep moving forward --- you will figure it out"

The next adventurous phase of my life is still ahead but I trust the solid foundation I have built. It will make all the difference. THE BEST IS YET TO COME!!!

P.S

#1. Writing have become a good habit that have been evolved my journey. There are even some courses about storytelling. I will consider about it. I envision a bright future where I craft an unique essay --- one that could earn me admission to Harvard . Then I will begin to a new studying chapter --- I become a student again :))

#2. Below is one of my favorite albums shooting in Korea. These pictures tell a story and reveal something about myself. Can you guess what they're about?