Little things #10

 #29 For a long time

Yep. It is right. Posts namely "Little things" haven't updated for a long time. This is the right call to get back to it :)

#30. Self-help books help me

I don't really like self-help books because I don't have good experience with this kind of book before. Perhaps, I don't feel related to with not a deep level that I want and seem boring to me. I prefer to read something that I am able to freely imagine like fairy tale or novel. In the other words, I can totally immerse myself and be able to not think too much the current. Like if reading the army marching in the forest at cold winter night then I will create my own memory through imagination and remember it.

It true that with the same object but we can feel differently in different time reflecting our changing experience and consciousness. At this moment, I rethink about self-help books because it resonates with me more. Approaching self-helps books now as a tool — help me explain and express myself. I write a lot, you know, but I am still not totally clear about me and my inner self. It is hard to explain where is my feeling come from, what should I express them in words and still leave it with unsure stuff and chaos. I have a sense that the self-help book's authors professionally worked in this area and they can display it through words more exactly and efficiently. Yeah I can get some interesting idea and empathy by reading self-help books TO SEEK SELF-AWARENESS and ENRICH MY ABILITY. It is one of approach to motivate reading books :)

As you might be heard, life is like a book. It is might be true. I am curious about my book than any book. I have a sense of self and desire to write beautiful chapters on it. For sure, reading self-help books can help me to speed up my own path. 

For instance,

Also, music lyrics is one of those sources that I can refer. Without a doubt, all of them is produced by creative and intelligent authors and song writers. They, producer with incredible capability, know how to explain what they think and make it become excellent by adding more spices and additives. In conclusion, to speed up my own way, of course, widen my knowledge and experience by reading, listening, watching, etc. And if it is possible to proactively produce mine.

PS. In the song "Million years ago" Adele wrote "I let my heart decide the way when I was young". Lack of experience can express that we let our heart lead us, perhaps. So, it seems we will not let our heart to work as much as we grow :)

#31. I, myself, my, etc.

I noticed the recent published posts mentioning about me, my, myself more frequency than before. 

It is explained that this is my personal blog and I mostly write about my thought and experience. Also explained, when I face tough time, seems I demand to write higher to partly motivate myself. Because I know that these posts were released when I was not in the completely good period of time. The things is somehow make the blog is not too positive. However still, I feel positive messages at the end at least for myself. It is undeniable to be doubt, uncertain, frustrated alongside our transform in personal growth. Anyways, sorry for any negativity brought to you. Honestly, I don't want to mention I, me, my, myself in titles too often and too many. It makes me feel like I am self-centered. I prefer posts with simple and meaningful titles (i.e. Also that smile)

#32. I've already known that

I've already known that if I did not obtain something with significant influence or impact yet then what I am writing down here or my "journey" don't matter. 

I've already known that final result matters. And I also kind of person tend to consider outcome no matter what. Because it fits with my experience. I don't feel it is right at all if saying like "I studied hard but did not get good score in class", "I tried my best but I couldn't finish this". All in all, you did not get your wanting and good ending. 

Get back to it. Because I've known that then sometimes I questioned myself about the work I've done in this website. Is that too "crazy" to show all of my personal and detailed thought that easily accessible since I still did not get the point I am able to significantly impact or help others and not in the successful status as wished and still on the road of figure things out. 

And I've known that I just think about it too much. I feel ashamed because I even did not give myself enough encouragement I should have but fill up with those thought and questions. 

Perhaps, I mostly forget I used to really passionate to begin with producing the very first words and sentences. I mostly forget I use to put lots of effort and enthusiasm along with invisible hope to write it down when I was a young girl with limited English. I mostly forget I used to spend hours of my free time to be able to publish these articles. I have to remind myself that I used to spend my whole day during my COVID-19 quarantine just to correct them. Also, late nights I spent just to write and read it. How excited I was when I come up with new idea for a draft. This blog reminds me that I have things to take care of and can become my personal identify. To sum up, the initial purpose of the blog is to share my journey and I might forget it. That's why it is called "Journey of the mind".

I've known that some writing revealed my authentic and vulnerable self. However, I will not erase or hide it. Keep it there as a marker of my younger version. This blog can be simply a diary, a note and a storage. So, I will still keep this work and improve it as I work and improve myself. I strongly believe a new me with a better version is coming soon where I am smarter, stronger, braver and happier.

#33. "What you can see you can get" (Collected)

I also agree with that.

#34. "When analyzing your strength don't be too polite"

It is quoted in "The 38 Letters from J D Rockerfeller to his son". It's true to embrace confidence.

Hanoi, November 30th, 2024