Habits and Discipline
Hello all,
I am coming back. As I have said before, I meant to improve English and writing skills during this "off-time" to level up this blog. Sadly speaking, I didn't spend to seriously study English at all. I set too high outcomes for this then somehow I don't want to start. I was so disappointed in myself. A women with a soft (I label myself), I start being filled by self-doubt about my goal, dream and enthusiasm.
Luckily and recently I know that that feeling is normal as nature and everyone faces that experience. Instead, we should build up with daily habit and discipline. Several books studies this kind of field such as Atomic habits, etc. You can reach them for more detail.
Turing back to my journey, I promise to myself that small habits can lead me further rather then just thinking without action.
Anyway, 10 months have passed from the latest post. During this time, I faced a lot difficulties in research and also got some achievements.
Mostly, It's hard because of the relationship between my advisor and me. Besides, in a short time I'm struggle dealing with a labmate. My motivation is drained empty and again self-doubt displace all my heart and my mind. I realized that my motivation is affect by someone because I still tie my goal and my aim to other. Now, they have been removed. Regardless of other's behavior and treatment, it cannot be a challenge to gain my goal anymore because I cannot control other but I can control my mind and action. A negativity is from my thought. I am an overthinker. I fear every single thing --- fear of not being good enough, fear of failure and I cannot freely study and enjoy. Both my greatest strength and my biggest enemy come from my mind I think. Anw, I have to handle and deal with that then I can truly enjoy life and learning.
Recently I am complimented as more mature by some people and I also can feel that. First, I am getting older as physical age and also I grown by lesson from hardship and overcome them. Now, I become more silent, resilient, and focus on my dream. I observe, evaluate and take conclusion for myself. I am grateful what I have with other's support and hopefully get better everyday.
Biggest achievement last 10 months is I know the exist of "The 38 letter from J D Rockerfeller to his son". ( Full 38 Bức thư của tỷ phú Rockerfeller gửi con trai This Vietnamese version has a great translation and voice) Each letter contain valuable lessons by richest men in the world all time to his son. Due to send to his son, every letter is extremely sincere. I listen to this every night before sleep. It's so touching and I cry a lot. Perhaps, they are what I'm finding in my journey and also what in my mind. What I totally admire him is a strong mindset, reach the best every situation, set standard for himself and discipline. I will collect the best best sentence in the best sentence here.
Opportunities will always be unequal but the outcomes maybe equal
To be continued and updated
Seoul, May 14, 2023
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