Journey of the mind

Oops!! Only two more years. I will be 30 and moving 30s.  Looking back first, I see my physical did not change much but my thought have been a bit more mature I aimed a goal I set out in my younger age even though it is not totally as planned. I had a year with groundbreaking change that I can turn my limitation to my strength, get out of safe zone and be more confident. But you know what, Mostly my younger time was sadness, loneliness and uncertainty for sure. I know that is the time I grow Looking year ahead What is 30s look like? Is it right that I will face more difficult problems. I am clear that I set out more goals                                                                             ...

Finally, I am officially able to get a Master's degree in Korea. First, congratulations to myself for not giving up. However, things are going that I did not plan for. I planned that I would have an excellent journey with outstanding achievements. I planned that I would get very good support from Professor and lab mates. But instead, I was struggling with every single thing from my emotions, my overthinking to my doubts. I did not get a good performance as my peers obtained. That's right. I had an over-simple view. I didn't plan for progress but only results. I believed what others showed based on my personal thoughts. I did not have a careful overview of all situations that could happen. Maybe, these are the lesson I have to learn this time. And, maybe "THAT IS NOT A FAILURE" "It didn't go wrong. It just didn't go the way I wanted it to go. We are conditioned to believe that we don't achieve exactly what we set out to do exactly the way we envisi...

Also that smile, but it is different. That smile is not simply a habit. That smile is created with time, experience, sadness, happiness, confidence, uncertainty, maturity, and tears. That smile know feeling is only temporary. I used to have a pure smile with full of joy, happiness, and excitation like a child. But it is changing. It has to change, right?  How selfish I am that I want to keep a pure smile forever when we are growing.                                                                                                                      ...